Dancing Baby!

We had our 10-week ultrasound yesterday and it couldn't have gone any more perfect! (Note the time of this post- what's with 3AM being the "magical" time for me to wake up in the middle of the night?!) We went to the official ultrasound office, which was a first so we were hoping that we'd be able to take a video, but they wouldn't let us :(. Anyhow, the technician slowly counted and measured each part of the baby and then finally....we saw the heartbeat!!!

We had seen a heartbeat at 8 weeks with the Doppler in the office, but it was such a relief to see it again! Then, she said, "Okay, now we should be able to hear it." After a couple of mouse-clicks, there it was! 174 beats per minute, which even though seems really fast, is considered perfect! Then, the best part was that all of the sudden he started dancing- literally. I thought that the technician was moving the little wand around or something but she commented saying, 'I'm still- he's moving!" We were right were we should be - 9weeks and 6days. It was so cool :) At 20 weeks, we get a DVD of the ultrasound, so that will be super cool so we can share it with our family and friends.

Also, I told my work yesterday, which was a huge relief- they all suspected, so it wasn't like I was dropping a bombshell or anything. One girl has been working part-time from home since she had a baby, and, if we have to, I'm hoping to do the same. Who knows what the Lord has in store for Koa in the next few months for a job, so we'll just have to wait and see.

So, we are over-joyed! I was getting nervous and worrying because I felt like some of my symptoms were beginning to subside, which reminded me of when we miscarried, but I guess it's just a sign that I'm nearing the end of the first trimester. I still am super tired, feel nauseous but not throwing up, and have huge "ladies". I've gained about 8 pounds (yikes!), which I know is a bit more than what I should, but the only thing that's been comforting for the nausea has been junk food. Hopefully I can get back on track soon and start exercising too.

One thing at a time, right?!

Can't Sleep...Again!

I just looked at my last post and realized that it was about at the same time in the wee hours of the morning too! I just can't get back to sleep even though I'm really tired :( We have our 10-week ultra sound at 3:45 today and although I'm really excited I'm super nervous too. I'm trying not to be, but I have to admit that I'm afraid. Praying that everything is perfect! I think that Koa is going to take a video clip, so I will post this evening :)

Can't Sleep!

It's 4:30 am and I absolutely cannot get back to sleep! I wish that I didn't have to go to work in the morning-ugg! 7 days until our first official ultrasound for our 10 week visit- fingers crossed!

6 Weeks!

I haven't posted in awhile because I have been soooooooo tired! I'm feeling really sick today- I didn't go to work today and have spent the majority of the day on the couch. I don't have my first sonogram appointment until the 28th which is two weeks away :( We did switch doctor's though- I'm be going to a friend's doctor whom she had both of her children with. So the quick update is- super tired, girls growing (cool, but not really!!), eating like a whale, I feel like the size of a house and I think that my pooch has definitely looks like I'm pregnant (they say you can tell sooner after you've been pregnant before, apparently). Koa and I are going to LA for the day on Saturday for Sam and Rekha's wedding and we'll be spending the day in Santa Monica before the wedding, so I'm pretty excited. Anyhow, back to the couch for me before I have to go pick Koa up from work.

Lower than I thought?

Okay Emily, don't let the FEAR horn in...My HCG levels were at 1,374 on Wednesday when we had the appointment. Much lower than the last time that I had them done, but we were also a bit further along and it's my understanding that they double every 48 hours, so logically, that makes up for the difference I guess. I looked online too and it seems to be in line with where we are but when Tong told me he said that he thought that meant we were between 2-4 weeks. What?! Well based on my last period it should be 5. But, now that I think about it, they estimated lower last time too but then when we went to the doctor we were 6 weeks. I dunno. Anyhow, I"m make an appointment next week to see the OBGYN- we'll be trying a new doctor this based time based on a friend's recommendation.

I want to write more, but I am super tired! It's so hot here I didn't get much sleep last night and even though I tried to sleep in I couldn't :(

5 Weeks!

Koa and I went to Dr. Mark's yesterday to have the official test done and yup, we're pregnant! I had blood work done too to find out the HCG levels, so that gives a more accurate count of how far along we are, but I'm pretty sure that today is exactly 5 weeks.

It does feel a little different than last time- I don't want to say less excited, but kind of. I mean we've done all of these steps before so there is not that sense of newness that there was before. Plus, it's hard not to be fearful of the past, but I am trying SOOOO hard and by His grace I won't let the fear overtake me or get me down! RRRAAAHHH!

In terms of the symptoms...(for journalling purposes, of course!), I already have stretch marks on the ladies- seriously. Big ones. I don't recall getting them last time this soon, but I'm thinking that since I don't have much in that department anyway, that the slightest chance my body is going to notice. Wearing a bra is torture- if it was socially acceptable, I totally would go without. At least I have some larger sizes from pre-weight loss, so that's handy. Also, yay me, I'm totally moody. Crying and irrational one minute, sugar and roses the next. No sickness to speak of yet (I hopefully never!), I just get really dizzy if I overdue it- meaning no running up the stairs at work like I used to.

What else....ummm....no smoking, obviously. Last Thursday before I took the test I smoked my last cigarette...I'm not going to lie- kind of sad but I had cut back to only 3 a day so it hasn't been too hard, but I'm still kind of craving them. But, I know it's best so it's not even an issue, really. I feel like any symptoms that I am having are partly due to nicotine withdrawals, but I'm not sure. I've also cut out most caffeine- switched to decaf in the morning and trying to only have one iced tea in the afternoon- no soda or anything like that.

I've been eating like a mad woman and I've been trying to practice self control, but it's hard. I think that I've gained a pound or two- the scale has been playing games lately so it's hard to say. I'd guess I've gained about two in the last month, but even prior to getting pregnant I hasn't bee doing that well with diet or exercise. So let's say: pre-preggo-125, today- 127. Sigh. I guess that's not so bad, but I just need to watch it! Yikes adding 25-35 pounds to that is down right scary. I'd like to get a fitness DVD or something just to keep toned up. Koa and I had planned on walking every night, but we've been so busy....although perhaps I could get on the treadmill rather than messing around on the internet in the morning, ehh?

Anyhow, speaking of internet there are things to be looked at! I'll post the HCG levels when I get them- they are supposed to call me this afternoon. Also, I'll need to book my OBGYN appointment soon too. We're not going back to the same doctor as before- we thought that they were kind of insensitive about the whole miscarriage situation, so yeah, no. Same hospital though, just a different clinic. From what I've read, they typically don't see you until your 8 weeks, but we shall see.....

Pregnant!

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