6 Weeks!

I haven't posted in awhile because I have been soooooooo tired! I'm feeling really sick today- I didn't go to work today and have spent the majority of the day on the couch. I don't have my first sonogram appointment until the 28th which is two weeks away :( We did switch doctor's though- I'm be going to a friend's doctor whom she had both of her children with. So the quick update is- super tired, girls growing (cool, but not really!!), eating like a whale, I feel like the size of a house and I think that my pooch has definitely looks like I'm pregnant (they say you can tell sooner after you've been pregnant before, apparently). Koa and I are going to LA for the day on Saturday for Sam and Rekha's wedding and we'll be spending the day in Santa Monica before the wedding, so I'm pretty excited. Anyhow, back to the couch for me before I have to go pick Koa up from work.

Lower than I thought?

Okay Emily, don't let the FEAR horn in...My HCG levels were at 1,374 on Wednesday when we had the appointment. Much lower than the last time that I had them done, but we were also a bit further along and it's my understanding that they double every 48 hours, so logically, that makes up for the difference I guess. I looked online too and it seems to be in line with where we are but when Tong told me he said that he thought that meant we were between 2-4 weeks. What?! Well based on my last period it should be 5. But, now that I think about it, they estimated lower last time too but then when we went to the doctor we were 6 weeks. I dunno. Anyhow, I"m make an appointment next week to see the OBGYN- we'll be trying a new doctor this based time based on a friend's recommendation.

I want to write more, but I am super tired! It's so hot here I didn't get much sleep last night and even though I tried to sleep in I couldn't :(

5 Weeks!

Koa and I went to Dr. Mark's yesterday to have the official test done and yup, we're pregnant! I had blood work done too to find out the HCG levels, so that gives a more accurate count of how far along we are, but I'm pretty sure that today is exactly 5 weeks.

It does feel a little different than last time- I don't want to say less excited, but kind of. I mean we've done all of these steps before so there is not that sense of newness that there was before. Plus, it's hard not to be fearful of the past, but I am trying SOOOO hard and by His grace I won't let the fear overtake me or get me down! RRRAAAHHH!

In terms of the symptoms...(for journalling purposes, of course!), I already have stretch marks on the ladies- seriously. Big ones. I don't recall getting them last time this soon, but I'm thinking that since I don't have much in that department anyway, that the slightest chance my body is going to notice. Wearing a bra is torture- if it was socially acceptable, I totally would go without. At least I have some larger sizes from pre-weight loss, so that's handy. Also, yay me, I'm totally moody. Crying and irrational one minute, sugar and roses the next. No sickness to speak of yet (I hopefully never!), I just get really dizzy if I overdue it- meaning no running up the stairs at work like I used to.

What else....ummm....no smoking, obviously. Last Thursday before I took the test I smoked my last cigarette...I'm not going to lie- kind of sad but I had cut back to only 3 a day so it hasn't been too hard, but I'm still kind of craving them. But, I know it's best so it's not even an issue, really. I feel like any symptoms that I am having are partly due to nicotine withdrawals, but I'm not sure. I've also cut out most caffeine- switched to decaf in the morning and trying to only have one iced tea in the afternoon- no soda or anything like that.

I've been eating like a mad woman and I've been trying to practice self control, but it's hard. I think that I've gained a pound or two- the scale has been playing games lately so it's hard to say. I'd guess I've gained about two in the last month, but even prior to getting pregnant I hasn't bee doing that well with diet or exercise. So let's say: pre-preggo-125, today- 127. Sigh. I guess that's not so bad, but I just need to watch it! Yikes adding 25-35 pounds to that is down right scary. I'd like to get a fitness DVD or something just to keep toned up. Koa and I had planned on walking every night, but we've been so busy....although perhaps I could get on the treadmill rather than messing around on the internet in the morning, ehh?

Anyhow, speaking of internet there are things to be looked at! I'll post the HCG levels when I get them- they are supposed to call me this afternoon. Also, I'll need to book my OBGYN appointment soon too. We're not going back to the same doctor as before- we thought that they were kind of insensitive about the whole miscarriage situation, so yeah, no. Same hospital though, just a different clinic. From what I've read, they typically don't see you until your 8 weeks, but we shall see.....

Pregnant!

A picture is worth a thousand words:

It's Wednesday!

Okay so technically it's day 29- I see no signs of anything yet. I've been having the same symptoms as before, mostly cramping and tiredness but no major changes. I've been having a few dizzy spells when I move around too fast and also have been crying on a dime, but at this point I'm chalking the crying up to typical period symptoms. Anyhow, I've decided to hold back until Saturday to take another test- that would make me a full 2-3 days late. So fingers crossed, I hope that this our month!

3 days to go... Part two

Hpph...So I took a test this afternoon- big, fat, negative. Hmm. Though I was thinking I guess that this Thursday would be the 30 day mark of my cycle, so maybe it was just too early? I'm bummed- I don't want to be disappointed! I guess that I'll hold out until Wednesday....

3 Days to go...

I have to control the urge not to test today. Although according to the back of the test box, I could technically get a positive result today if I am indeed pregnant, but I want to hold out until the percentages of accuracy are a little better. In terms of symptoms, I'm not feeling too much other than super tired. Yesterday I took two naps and slept from 10 to 6:30am today. We went to the strawberry festival yesterday, which was fun, but I ate waaaay too many goodies- I could not help myself! Corn on the cob, chicken teriyaki-bob-thingy, and chocolate dipped strawberries- YUM! When we were getting ready to leave to walk over (awesome- the park it was being held at is only a few minutes walk) I made the decision not to wear a bra because it was so uncomfortable! Not that I've got a lot upstairs that I really need to worry about it, but I still felt weird. Then, of course, the sun came out strong and I could no longer hide under the safety of my hoody :) Enough about boobs, eh? Maybe all of the junk food is what put me out? Koa did have a good point in reminding me that I haven't been exercising...AT ALL...so maybe my lack of energy is from that? I dunno. I would say that my ridiculous appetite lately could be a sign of preggo too, but I might just be heading down a slippery slope weight wise. If I'm not preggo, it's back on the treadmill with me- no excuses! If I am preggo though, Koa and I will re-launch our nightly walks like we did last year.

Anyhow, not too much planned for today- Koa is painting during worship at church this morning, so I'm really excited for him, even though I know that he's nervous. He'll do great, I'm sure of it. I will be bringing my camera along in my purse for a stealth photo waaa haaa ha. I'm betting we'll go to Olive Garden afterwards (it's our new tradition) but we did eat out for dinner last night (again with the junk food- pizza and sorbet for me), so maybe we'll head home after instead. I've been planning on making some sort of soup- (maybe taco soup?), need to finish up the laundry- have to fold three loads and wash at least three more (arrg), I NEED to weed the back and front yards (I'm so embarrassed!), and finally if there's time and if I'm not exhausted, I'd like to work on the afghan...I have about 2 feet of it complete- many more to go.

Sub-comment and final thought for today's post- when the baby time is finally here, I'd like to sew Hawaiian themed bedding and curtains...(or have Shelley and Mom help!!!) for the baby room. Cuteness and Koa-approved! Brown/Pink hibiscus for a little girl or "classic" hawaiian for a little boy. CUTE CUTE CUTE. With lots of accessories to match from Target. Hmmm....would I paint the room? I'm out of control...one thing at a time...starting with a positive result!

More soon!