It's Wednesday!

Okay so technically it's day 29- I see no signs of anything yet. I've been having the same symptoms as before, mostly cramping and tiredness but no major changes. I've been having a few dizzy spells when I move around too fast and also have been crying on a dime, but at this point I'm chalking the crying up to typical period symptoms. Anyhow, I've decided to hold back until Saturday to take another test- that would make me a full 2-3 days late. So fingers crossed, I hope that this our month!

3 days to go... Part two

Hpph...So I took a test this afternoon- big, fat, negative. Hmm. Though I was thinking I guess that this Thursday would be the 30 day mark of my cycle, so maybe it was just too early? I'm bummed- I don't want to be disappointed! I guess that I'll hold out until Wednesday....

3 Days to go...

I have to control the urge not to test today. Although according to the back of the test box, I could technically get a positive result today if I am indeed pregnant, but I want to hold out until the percentages of accuracy are a little better. In terms of symptoms, I'm not feeling too much other than super tired. Yesterday I took two naps and slept from 10 to 6:30am today. We went to the strawberry festival yesterday, which was fun, but I ate waaaay too many goodies- I could not help myself! Corn on the cob, chicken teriyaki-bob-thingy, and chocolate dipped strawberries- YUM! When we were getting ready to leave to walk over (awesome- the park it was being held at is only a few minutes walk) I made the decision not to wear a bra because it was so uncomfortable! Not that I've got a lot upstairs that I really need to worry about it, but I still felt weird. Then, of course, the sun came out strong and I could no longer hide under the safety of my hoody :) Enough about boobs, eh? Maybe all of the junk food is what put me out? Koa did have a good point in reminding me that I haven't been exercising...AT ALL...so maybe my lack of energy is from that? I dunno. I would say that my ridiculous appetite lately could be a sign of preggo too, but I might just be heading down a slippery slope weight wise. If I'm not preggo, it's back on the treadmill with me- no excuses! If I am preggo though, Koa and I will re-launch our nightly walks like we did last year.

Anyhow, not too much planned for today- Koa is painting during worship at church this morning, so I'm really excited for him, even though I know that he's nervous. He'll do great, I'm sure of it. I will be bringing my camera along in my purse for a stealth photo waaa haaa ha. I'm betting we'll go to Olive Garden afterwards (it's our new tradition) but we did eat out for dinner last night (again with the junk food- pizza and sorbet for me), so maybe we'll head home after instead. I've been planning on making some sort of soup- (maybe taco soup?), need to finish up the laundry- have to fold three loads and wash at least three more (arrg), I NEED to weed the back and front yards (I'm so embarrassed!), and finally if there's time and if I'm not exhausted, I'd like to work on the afghan...I have about 2 feet of it complete- many more to go.

Sub-comment and final thought for today's post- when the baby time is finally here, I'd like to sew Hawaiian themed bedding and curtains...(or have Shelley and Mom help!!!) for the baby room. Cuteness and Koa-approved! Brown/Pink hibiscus for a little girl or "classic" hawaiian for a little boy. CUTE CUTE CUTE. With lots of accessories to match from Target. Hmmm....would I paint the room? I'm out of control...one thing at a time...starting with a positive result!

More soon!

5 days to go...

I feel kind of lame.

More of the same feelings, although I feel like the stretch marks that I got from my last short-lived pregnancy are starting to appear more prominently. I have nearly no boobage as it is, so I'm betting that the slightest anything would make them stretch. Just looks like silvery/blue lines all over the place. Either that or I'm crazy...I dunno.

I ate like a total Cartman yesterday- seriously, I was unstoppable...I'm embarrassed actually. I can't believe that I used to eat that way every day. Gross. However, I won't be surprised if today isn't more of the same as I have a lunch date with Rosemarie at Chipotle, then we're getting together with Nicole at Red Robin for "happy hour". Hopefully no one harasses me about drinking- I've got my "speech" all planned out. I don't know why everyone has be so in my business.

If I am pregnant, I won't be announcing it to my co-workers until I'm into my second trimester. Last time I jumped the gun and let the news fly at 6 weeks and then when I miscarried, it was a constant reminder for the next month or so of what had happened because everyone was curious and asking how I was doing. But, we'll be shouting it from the rooftops to our family and church friends! Koa and I are believing that we are going to go to full term and the Lord is going to give us a happy, perfect baby- boy or girl...we don't care.

I'm going to try to control myself to not take a test until Tuesday (which is when I'm expecting my period) but akkk....that's 5 days out. I don't want to see a negative result and be disappointed, and since it's really common to get a false negative, I'd rather wait it out.

So glad it's Friday!

6 days to go...

I figured that I'd better update the title of the blog as a countdown to my lady friend arriving for future reference later...Anyhow, the updates continue. More of the same symptoms as yesterday- tired even though I got a lot of sleep, woke up at 2am to use the restroom, and at 5:30, woke up again because I couldn't get back to sleep. I'm having the pressure from what feels like behind my boobs, but they don't feel hard like I remember...hopefully this isn't a bad sign although I still can't remember when that symptom kicked in. They just feel sensitive, but not over sore. At a certain point, I feel like I'm being ridiculous even "trying to figure things out" because I either am pregnant or I'm not. I just hate the waiting- I'm getting impatient! Technically, I could test on Monday with an early HPT, but I might wait until Wednesday when I expect my period just to be sure. A couple of times yesterday I had mild cramping, but again, it could just be PMS- it's hard to know which is which.

Waiting is hard...

Okay, thought I'd better post another update- again, just in case next month I'm wondering if these symptoms were all in my head or not. Yesterday, I was super tired all day, despite having gone to bed at 9pm. In the evening, I went to the grocery store then fixed dinner, but while I was finishing up, I was super cranky towards Koa and felt like everything was going wrong- no A1...oh wait, there is an entire fresh bottle in the fridge, steamed veggies were emitting steam all over the place, cheap cut o meat from QFC had too much fat on it, etc. , etc. Then, worst of all I was making arguments with Koa out of nothing. We started arguing about plane tickets to LAX for Sam and Rekha's wedding and I just was getting really frustrated for really no reason at all. Long story short, I upset Koa and ended up going to bed at 8pm last night. I pretty much slept the entire night except for waking up a couple of times- once to pee, once to have the covers being tugged away from me, then at 5am because Conan was getting impatient. I had a little bit of mild cramping yesterday, but nothing too bad...nothing like a few days ago- just a mild, dull feeling. My boobs don't exactly feel like they are getting larger, but again, there is a dull pain feeling behind both...feels kind of like someone is pushing from the inside out? Since I lost weight I pretty much have no boobage left, so it's hard to tell if there is any growth or not. Also, when I was sitting down yesterday, it was uncomfortable to have my pants buttoned. There is some upward movement on the scale too (yesterday it read 124.9) which is up a bit from about a week ago. Anyhow, I'm not due for my period until the 30th, so I've got a while to wait. Signing off for now...

It's like playing the lottery

Long time no post, yes, yes...(I'm not proofreading or worrying about grammar because I AM TIRED!)

Weight loss update- right on track! I'm down to about 121, depending on the day, which I'm pretty happy with. In an ideal world, I'd be 115, but I'm not nearly as obsessed as I once was. I finished the SGK 5K in 32 minutes and ran the whole thing so goals 1 and 2 check and check!

Anyhow, just a quick post to so that if I look back and wonder what I was feeling like I'll know. Without giving TMI, I feel like this is the first month in awhile that we've actually been "trying". So, I'm wondering if this month will be it! I got totally tricked last month because I was a few days late so I don't want to get my hopes up. Yesterday, I took a four hour nap in the afternoon despite getting about 10 hours of sleep the night before. We had a really packed weekend, so it just might be that I needed the extra sleep to "catch up". For the last couple of days I've had weird cramps- with some days being more painful that others, and some lasting longer than others. Sometimes it's all the way across and sometimes it's only on one side...in particular the right. I'm expected my period in about 9 days, so we shall see...I'm really hoping that "I've got the golden ticket" this month!

I'm super excited, but I just don't want to get my hopes up because I don't want to be disappointed once again. Just realized how much I miss this blogging action first thing in the morning...perhaps I need to get back into it again... I wish I could stay home from work today because I just want to sleep, but I have to volunteer at a golf tournament in the afternoon...I am getting paid though, so it's not too bad- just wish it was sunny!

Signing off for now...more updates to follow...